{overflows and stuff}

it was never more 
than i am fine
than unfinished plans for summertime
than lyrics that rhyme
than laughing to pass the time
because i wish i knew you
                 and i wish you knew me 
we’ve waded in murky water
how deep? how wide? 
is it love?
or ropes tied 
one ankle to another
to another to another
there are no enemies
just jokes, anchors
haves and have-beens
scabs that heal until 
picked to bleed

we’ve waded in shallow waters
and now i’ve reached the shore 
of a foreign country
foreign faces
strange embraces
more welcoming than yours 

feels so good to be able to shut up those voices that say beauty is on the outside. that worth comes from the affirmation of those who like what you wear and what you look like. to silence those voices that tell me that i’m not good enough, but at the same time, i’m better than other people who judge like that. pride and self-pity working together. to mute the voice that says that those friendships just aren’t worth it. to break this cycle of perpetual self-illusions and hear only one voice.

one voice that says “you are precious and honored in my sight… and i love you,” “you are fearfully and wonderfully made,” “your beauty should not come from outward adornment such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.”  Love is not blind, it sees what really matters.

Who is He who makes me happy
who is He that gives me peace
who is He that brings me comfort
turns the bitter into sweet 

Creater God, He is Yahweh
the Great I Am, He is Yahweh
the Lord of All, He is Yahweh 

listening to all their acoustic songs on youtube and dying